surgery

My mother, who is even older than I am, is having surgery tomorrow for colon cancer. I think it is really difficult to deal with something over which I have so little control. I have no control about getting news from my sister about what is happening. I want things to be OK. I did not have a very good childhood. At times it is funny how bad it was. I am surprised how hard it is to face tomorrow. I am afraid of what is going to happen to my mother. She is almost 90. There is no way for her to die young. I just don't want her to be afraid, or suffer. I wish I could do something to help. Of course there is nothing I can do. I have people praying for her. That is the best I can do.